Moving Forward

Enough

Do you ever wonder if you're enough? Do you wonder if you're enough because people make you feel as though you're not? What does it even mean to be enough? This is so simple today. I will never be enough. You will never be enough. Because only God is enough. Only God can satisfy completely. Only the Father can be my all in all... your all in all.
Where's this coming from, you ask? Well I work with a person who is never satisfied. She goes day to day talking to new people and meeting new people because no one is enough for her. She's searching. It's sad because she won't find it where she's looking.
I really thought through her situation today for some reason. Maybe because she was sent a beautiful bouquet of flowers the other day. They were just perfect. She talked all day about how she had never been sent flowers before and she was so excited. I was happy for her but also a little jealous because I've never had flowers sent to me by anyone but my parents. In the next couple of days she was showered with little gifts and while all of those things brought momentary joy, at the end of the night she was still unsatisfied. Those things weren't enough for her. Before I move on I'd like to interject that she is admittedly high maintenance, but that's not the point. The point is... she is not allowing God to be enough if anything at all. She is looking to be happy and have joy, but only true joy can be found in Christ.
I've been guilty of trying to be enough for people lately only to be sorely disappointed when I come to realize that they don't need me as much as I thought. I've thought things like "why am I not enough for you?" and "why don't you just come to me with that?" and "why can't I know that part?". I'm trying to be too much. When someone has something they need me for they'll come. I don't need to know every part of everyone's life. I hate knowing that something's up and I don't know what it is, nor can I ask because I need to allow the person to go to whoever they want to in order to work stuff out. I hate that I can't fix things for people like I want to. I hate that I can't be a part of all parts of people's lives, like something's being hidden.
I'm kinda easily affected by how others are doing, so if I know (or think I know) that you're struggling, mad, or just upset I feel helpless... especially if I don't know for sure. Make any sense?
I need to relax, realize that I'm not enough, and allow Jesus to handle things with other people, not me. I'm thinkin He handles other people's stuff better than I can or will ever.
Onto lighter stuff... my brother is back from arizona and I'm really glad. He's become one of my best buds these days. Alexandria is nine months old today and too freakin cute. I didn't do anything real exciting over the weekend, just kind of hung out. I have to work this saturday which is no fun, but sunday I'm excited to hang with friends for a super bowl party. Next week I only have a 4 day week and I can't wait! Short work weeks are great. Next Friday I'm heading down to Indy to go on a retreat with Trent and his jr. high kids. Should be a good time. Prayers for the youth and leadership are welcome.
I think I have a mission trip figured out for this summer with my church and I'm pretty excited about that. Welp that's it from me.
All in All
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up, I’d be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God, worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God, worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising again, I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down, You pick me up
When I am dry, You fill my cup
You are my all in all

You thought I was going to put the lyrics to "Enough" up, didn't you? How predictable!

posted by Moving Forward @ 9:12 PM