Moving Forward

The calm

It's been really stormy the last few days... tornados and the like. I've loved it. You can't fully enjoy summer until that one booming crack of thunder rattles your insides enough to remind you of your childhood and nights spent on your parent's bedroom floor. It's calm out there right now, but more strong storms are predicted for later on. The calm before the storm. It can be such a peaceful time, but it can also be such a tense time too. The anxiety and expectancy of it all is almost too much sometimes... as it is in life.
This is the first week I've had time to breathe in a while and it's a bit of a strange thing for me. It signifies the end of summer, I suppose. Things are winding down, but I don't think I'm ready for them to be over. The reality of everyday life is setting back in now that "wedding week '07" is over and I'm home from visiting various friends who live way too far away. Carley's wedding was beautiful, she was glowing and Matt was really handsome. The day went off without a hitch as far as I can tell... there wasn't any drama, Kayla was really cute as the flower girl, and Matt and Carley were revelling in the love they share. It was perfect for them... because it was all for the Lord.
The time I got to spend with my friends was priceless as always... there's a comfort in old friends that I can't really describe. All of my old friends have new friends and it's fun to incorporate them into our lives when we're together... basically I'm talking about their husbands or wives. This is such a strange time in my life. Time is a tricky thing. Hours, days, weeks, months, years. They all slip away from us. I'm not sure what this means right now.
People think it's weird that I'm not married yet. Other people commend me on it (as though I've had much of a choice). But I'm okay with my singleness and it's a great time to be free. I see that there's blessings in it and I praise God for the work He does through me. Ya gotta work with what you're given, yeah? For as much as I enjoy life the way it is I wouldn't be opposed to a change. That's really ONLY to say that I'm sick of people telling me that being single is the greatest thing ever and that they wished they had spent more time figuring out who they were. (whoa, kinda a harsh turn, I know) The thing is why can't you figure out who you are now? You're still an individual even though the two become one. The other person just addes to that. I believe that you have to work on figuring out who you are in the Lord, everyday, single or married. It's something everyone should work on, don't you think? I don't know... maybe I'm way off base here and if I am feel free to tell me.
We all have days when we're unsatisfied with what we have. Some married people wish they were single some days, though not because of troubles or a lack of love. Some single people wish they were married, though not because they're not complete without someone else. We all need companionship right? I just think there's good in both situations and not everyone considers that because they look at what the others have and envy it.
So that was me, up on my soapbox apparently. If we could all just look to the Lord to complete us there wouldn't been any of this. Easier said then done. Darn humanistic ways of life.
On a completely different note, I'm really excited because I've been able to write some stuff for guitar this week. I'm also excited because my church is doing worship in the park this sunday... aka we're meeting at the park right down the street from my house for church. We're combining with the Lutheran and Baptist Church to make it a very ecumenical Sunday. Good stuff. Also this past week for youth group we went fishing on this gorgeous lake not to far from my house... it was so much fun. Who woulda ever thought I'd be goin finshing with my youth group? Not me, but they loved it and I'm glad because I love fishing. We're working on cleaning my basement up this coming week so that we can have our first skating party! We had youth group at the pool a couple weeks ago and that was very cool too. I just love it!
Welp, that's it for me... I've gotta finish baking these swirl cookies for Kayla because the poor little thing has a cold and then I'm gonna ride my bike to my famiy's house! Peace and love. (that was kinda hippy, I know)
Psalm 63:
"1 O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.

3 Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.

4 I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.

5 My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.

7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.

8 My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

9 They who seek my life will be destroyed;
they will go down to the depths of the earth.

10 They will be given over to the sword
and become food for jackals.

11 But the king will rejoice in God;
all who swear by God's name will praise him,
while the mouths of liars will be silenced."

"Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for men, for he satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things." Psalm 107:8-9

posted by Moving Forward @ 2:44 PM