Moving Forward

bad day

So, I woke up in a bad mood and that set the tone for my entire day. I hate being in a bad mood and I tried to change it, but thing after thing kept coming up and just really trying my patience. Waking up crabby is awful! (so is waking up at 6:30am wide awake for no reason!) I don't like being upset in general... there's just no point and nothing gets accomplished by it. I don't like to cry and it takes a lot to get me so upset that I do, but today I just felt broken and like I wanted to cry, but the tears wouldn't come. I'm thankful for that though. Like I said... what's the use? It's certainly okay to cry and I'm not saying that it's not, but for me, I just don't anymore.
There's a lot that's been going on in my head and in my heart and I suppose I just don't want to deal with it anymore. It hit me today.
How can you express your hurt and frustration if you're busy feeling overwhelmed and sorry for yourself? You simply cannot. And if you do there's a good chance it's coming out all whinny.
Hmmm... I guess I don't really know the point of this entry. Maybe just that today I was weak and let my emotions take control. One thing set me off and that set my entire day off. I chose to allow myself to be okay with that and in turn I had a crappy day. Was I still able to work, minister, and communicate? sure. It just coulda been better. The day could have been better. It was essentially my choice and today I was lazy.
Tomorrow is a new day, praise the Lord. :)

posted by Moving Forward @ 11:21 PM