Moving Forward

friendship, loss, changes

Have you ever been on the verge of losing something or someone and there's nothing you can do about it? It's the most helpless feeling in the world. I'm not just referring to losing someone without them knowing Christ, although that's the worst kind of loss if you ask me. I'm talking about being able to let something or someone go and knowing that God is in control. I have the worst time with that. It's hard for me to let anyone go, especially someone really important to me. You'd think that I had been abandoned or something at some point in my life, but I haven't. I just can't give up on people. Like letting someone go is giving up a part of me and I'll never get it back. I want to be better at it. I would love to be able to just shrug a loss off, but I can't. (I haven't lost anybody or anything... no worries. I'm just thinking.) I don't like to feel helpless, but it's for sure when God is most evident to me.
I think about the next few years ahead of me and I know that there are people I'll have to leave behind or say goodbye to and I'm not looking forward to it. These days people have convinced themselves that nothing is forever and things don't change, but that's a lie. You have to work really, really hard to keep relationships strong and if both parties aren't willing to do so then there's nothing you can do.
This seems like such a negative way of thinking, and I guess it is if that's how you take it, BUT I'm actually looking forward to how God is going to use these situations. It's never fun for a relationship to die out, but just when the emptiness is at it's peak God is there reminding us that you're not empty with Him.
This is more for me then for anyone else... a kind of reminder for when a friendship changes and I don't like it.

posted by Moving Forward @ 5:37 PM