I need a break!!
Do you ever feel like you need a break from life? That's kinda how this week has gone for me. A lot of good has gone on and I still feel just blah. It's just little things you know? Like having something scheduled that you hold at highest importance... only to find that the other people involved don't care as much so it doesn't get done out of pure laziness. Or having old crap brought up that you never wanted to deal with again because it wasn't a good time in your life. OR like when a "friend" doesn't keep in contact or if they do it's because they have ulterior motives. These little things drive me nuts. I hate finding out/remembering people's flaws. It's not fun times. I'm not saying that I'm perfect because I'm for sure far from it.One thing I just wanna lay out there right now is that I HATE when people act like they're your friend, but don't hold up their end. Onesided friendships are a huge pet peeve and I have no place for them in my life. There are just some people who come back into my life simply becaue they want to get ahold of someone else. Or sometimes people that I'm "friends" with don't want to make time for me, but only my other friends that they think they know, but really don't. The whole ulterior motives thing. I don't know if that makes sense to you, but it does to me.
This is why I feel like I need a break from life. I just want to be able to do nothing. Not have to worry about school (which is, by the way, really bogging me down), not have to worry about friends and the annoying things they are doing. I just want to relax. I feel like I haven't been able to be me because there's so much else going on.
This weekend is going to be a good time I think. For the first time in a long time I'll be alone (no worries folks, I do have plans, just not ALL weekend). I've been going home so much and then when I'm not home we have people here (which I really do love, Beach), so it hasn't left much "me" time.
I don't want to sound down because I really am a happy person and I have joy in my life, God is here and He is good. There really is so much good going on, I've just been too stressed to realize it. The whole "getting to know someone better" thing is going well and I'm enjoying that. God is speaking even when I'm not listening real closely. Praise Him for His persistence in my life.
Anyway, I hope you all have a good weekend and find some time to relax and just enjoy yourself. Much love!
posted by Moving Forward @ 3:07 PM
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