Bittersweet
It's been a while because I've been incredibly busy, but I'm loving it. I spent some time in Illinois last week mainly for the Dudich wedding. It was amazing and beautiful and I am incredibly happy for them. They looked so happy and in love. They are such good friends to me too. I had a chance to sit and hang with John and his groomsman for a while and it was great. He has really grown up in the last four years and it's impressive. We've spent almost no time together because of school, but we've kept in touch through email and a few phone calls. He is still an amazing friend and he always will be. I haven't kept in great contact with Ash, but she's still awesome and I love her. We email and send cards and stuff so it's cool to know that we'll always be friends too. Congrats to them!Anyway, I was nervous about the summer because of situations with some friends, mainly an ex-boyfriend, but things are turning out alright. Because of my work schedule I've actually seen him more than I have my own parents, which is kind of sad, but it's been good for us. However I'm back to the confused stage that I thought I was out of. Geez... I'm a total girl. :o) There's this guy at school that I didn't realize I had feelings for until we were apart, and now my ex has a girlfriend, but he says that he is willing to change that because they are really casual. grrr. It's flattering knowing that someone likes me and for once I actually feel good about myself, but that feeling won't last and when my short summer is over that will be that. I'll be back to feeling like me and I don't want that. So the logical thing to do is to go about my life alone, as I have been, so as not be even more disappointed and down. Life can be so bittersweet sometimes.
So, I know this sounds so cliche (at least I think it does), but I'm trying to focus on my music right now. I'm singing and playing guitar in a wedding in August so I have to get my fingers and voice ready for that. I'm also doing some writing... something I've been meaning to do for 6 months now. I have a friend who is building a recording studio in his new house and he's invited me to use it when I want so I would love to have some stuff ready when he is done building it.
I'm going to try to keep this thing updated, but I want to know how you all are doing too. I'm hoping to make a lot of changes so pray that I can make it through.
posted by Moving Forward @ 1:36 AM
1 Comments:
Glad things are working out with the ex.
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