Investing in people or God?
So today was an interesting one for me. I'm running on about 2 hours of sleep so as you can imagine I'm a little cranky, but I got to go to another Cubs game today and it was awesome! Mark Prior started the game and that always makes me smile. He did really well too, so that's cool, but I'd still love him even if he stunk it up. I got within five feet of him and got some good pictures, but no autographs on my jersey. The little punk snuck out a back door after he said he'd sign, but what do you expect when you're dealing with a "star".I went to the game alone and it was actually nice. I have a lot of crap on my mind and this time I didn't let it eat away at me because I've decided that its not worth spending my time being bummed by other people. And this is what I want to talk about tonight.
Sometimes I feel like its not worth investing my time and heart into people anymore because it only leads to pain and heartache. Having friends is cool and all, but I need to rethink the level of my friendships. If I don't invest a lot of myself then there's not a lot of vulnerabilty or room to be hurt. Sounds kind of sad don't you think? But then there is not dissappointment because there are no expectations. I once thought that having high expectations made sense especially when you are close with a person because you have so much invested in each other. But high expectations leads to big let downs and tons of dissappointment.
On the other side of things God is perfect and awesome because He can't and won't ever let us down. So once again I am reminded how vital it is to place all my hope in Christ. If it is anywhere else (it being my hope) there is room for heartache. If we try to live our lives without God we will be living a life of let downs. Thank you Jesus for being the only One! The only faithful One.
I hate to think that keeping myself distanced is what needs to be done, but maybe that is a way I'll learn to always trust God and stop putting so much faith in people.
However there will always be those people that you can call at anytime of the day or night and they will be there in a way that it is hard to comprehend God being. Not that those people replace God in anyway.
I've now reached the point of over-kill and rambling. So let me just end this by saying that I love my Father and all of my friends. I just think that some stuff might need to change on my end.
Let me know what you think of this by posting a comment. It'd be cool to know that someone is actually reading this.
posted by Moving Forward @ 11:26 PM
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