The most wonderful time of the year!
I hope you all had a very merry Christmas! Mine was great... it's always a good time when my whole immediate family is together. Liz, Terry, and Kayla left tonight, but we had a great time. Anyway this is just a friendly reminder that 5 days from now is the best day of the year! Night all!
Only a week and I'm weak
So, I've been home for about a week now and what have I done? You guessed it! I've done nothing but work. Don't get me wrong I'm in serious need of the money, but working 11am-10pm on Christmas Eve and 8am-2:30pm on Christmas day is not what I had in mind when I asked for hours. I'm at a loss really. I've been working the same mundane job since I turned 16... 7 years! Not only does that make me old... it makes me pathetic. I've never really tried to get another job that pays more because I'm really comfortable doing the job I do. It's easy and brainless. What's sad about it is that I have really good friends who have dedicated their lives to doing the job I do. Anyway, enough about that. I think you get the fact that I'm bored with work. My sister, brother-in-law, and niece are here, which is really great... I haven't got to spend much time with them due to the afformentioned job situation, but it's nice nevertheless. I'm still not done Christmas shopping, but hopefully tomorrow will be my last day. Shopping is nuts.Like I said, I've only been home for a week, but it already seems like an eternity because I'm missing people already. If you don't know who I'm referring to by "people", count yourself lucky. I've talked to people on the phone, but it's a total bummer because things are already different. One week! I just have to keep reminding myself that life goes on and God is going to be by my side no matter what happens. That's not the first thing that pops into my head when I'm bummed out and maybe that's part of the problem right there. Who knows. All I know is that after I got off the phone today the only thing I wanted to do was fly back to Indy. I never thought I'd find myself saying that at all. Freakin Indiana. If I didn't have to go to class it probably wouldn't be as bad... wait a minute... yeah it would. It's Indiana. I love my family though and I am always wanting to come home because normally I have no reason to want to stay... this time is different in that I have a reason to want to stay. Anyway... all of this to say that prayers would be appreciated. No worries though folks... tomorrow is a new day and I am a new creation. Here's something that gets me through..."When your lonely And it feels like the whole world is falling on you You just reach out, you just cry out to JesusCry to Jesus There is hope for the helplessRest for the wearyLove for the broken heart There is grace and forgiveness Mercy and healing He'll meet you wherever you are Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus"Still loving this song... still loving Third Day.
My friends are the greatest...
I know I've been posting a ton lately, but I wanted to share a fun story with you all. Yesterday I had to work on a group project all day. So at 7:45 when we were done I was crabby and really hungry. Steph was here, so the three of us went out to Applebee's for dinner. We drove separately because my car was already on campus and they met me there to go. On the way I called Trent to see what time he was coming over tonight and he told me to call him when we're coming home. So as we're leaving Steph suggested that we rent a movie. We stopped at Blockbuster and Ash went home. On the way home I called Trent and he didn't answer (which I hate!) so I left a message saying to come over when he got the message.We pull up to my house and his Jeep is already here. So as Steph and I are walking in the house I'm saying, "thanks for ignoring my call jerk!" I get up the stairs and everyone is wearing birthday hats and screaming happy birthday... Drew is dancing around waving a flag. It was hysterical!They decorated the house and everything. We had cupcakes and opened presents, and then played games. It so much fun for me! I've been telling Ashley that she better throw me a party for like a month now... even though my real b-day isn't til the 30th. So anyway... Thanks to Ash, Steph, Trent, Drew, Megan, and Christy for a fun little birthday party! It was awesome!
Regarding "moving forward"
About 30 minutes after I posted this my phone rang and I ended up hanging with Trent til 3:30am... again. So I'm not THAT much of a loser tonight. :o)
Moving Forward
Something I realized about myself tonight is that I get bored way too easily. I haven't spent much time alone lately because I've been hanging out with friends a lot (and by friends I mean Trent of course...) and I just don't enjoy being by myself for long periods of time anymore. I consider myself a very independent person and I've been that way since I was about 16, but something is changing now. Now that all my friends are spread across the country all I want to do is spend time with them. I used to long for time to myself where I didn't have to deal with anyone, but now I just get bored. I say this because my roommate goes home almost every weekend, but up until today there has been someone here to hang with. Either Steph or Trent usually. Not tonight though. In the past I would see this as time to just relax. Not tonight. I'm restless.Part of it has to do with the fact that Trent was here til 3 this morning and I had to wake up at 7:30 and then go to my internship, then I slept for two hours. Now I'm wide awake and ready with no where to go. It's sad because this is how all of next semster is going to go. This is yet another consquence I face because I insisted on taking a semester off. And the thing is, it's not like I don't have friends on campus because I do... I really like lots of people at IWU, I'm just too lazy to make the effort and to make plans.One thing is certain though... I'm never completely alone. I think this is going to be an exciting time for God and I and I'm definitely looking forward to that. I totally just 180ed that whole thing, but hey my mind is racing... what do you expect? Plus as I've said a thousand times before, God is faithful... though I'm not all the time. Gotta keep moving forward.
I can't cry out
Cry Out To JesusVerse 1:To everyone who's lost someone they loveLong before it was their timeYou feel like the days you had were not enoughwhen you said goodbyeAnd to all of the people with burdens and painsKeeping you back from your lifeYou believe that there's nothing and there is no oneWho can make it rightChorus:There is hope for the helplessRest for the wearyLove for the broken heartThere is grace and forgivenessMercy and healing He'll meet you wherever you areCry out to Jesus, Cry out to JesusVerse 2:For the marriage that's struggling just to hang onThey lost all of their faith in loveThey've done all they can to make it right againStill it's not enoughFor the ones who can't break the addictions and chainsYou try to give up but you come back againJust remember that you're not alone in your shameAnd your sufferingBridge:When you're lonelyAnd it feels like the whole world is falling on youYou just reach out, you just cry out to JesusCry to JesusVerse 3:To the widow who struggles with being aloneWiping the tears from her eyesFor the children around the world without a homeSay a prayer tonightOkay, as you all know I love Third Day. (I know a lot of you don't like them and you know what? I really don't care, so keep your opinion to yourself please.) And I love this song, but sometimes you just can't cry to Jesus. Right now I can't cry to Jesus. I know that every second of our lives is a time we can (as in have the ability to) cry out to Jesus. Why is it when I need Him most I run farther away? For now I'll keep listening to the song... I'll eventually be able to cry out to Jesus. Good thing He's faithful.
The Game of Life
Winter has moved in... and rather quickly I might add. Not much has gone on this week. It actually flew by for me which is nice. The semester is rapidly coming to a close and I, of course, still have a million things to get done because I'm a procrastinator in the worst way. What can I say? My friends are more important to me than my classes. Yeah, I have senioritis bad. The topic of what I want to do with my life came up the other day in a conversation and for the first time I was confident in what I want to do. We all know that I'm planning on going to Italy, but I'm going to be honest and say that if something else presented itself (ie. a relationship) I would jump on it. Italy would be amazing and life changing, of that I'm sure, but if I go am I missing something here? I feel like if I go away for a year or two I'm going to miss out on lots of opportunities. Who knows what kind of opportunities, but it doesn't matter. On the other hand, when in my life am I going to have the opportunity to go and live in Italy, assuming that I get married someday? Either way I know that God will be with me. I don't have to make a decision right now or anything, but its just something I've been thinking about. I also know that either way I want to work in a church. Who woulda thought that I would work in a church? I know that I'm being called to use my gifts and they would be put to work in a huge way working in a church. On a different note we got a real Christmas tree for our apartment and it's beautiful! I love Christmas and everything that comes with this time of year! Speaking of important days in December... my birthday is rapidly approaching. That's right 27 days, my friends! The count down will never cease! I should be doing homework right now. I should have been doing homework last night too. Oops. Hanging with Trent is more fun. :o) So why am I not doing it tonight? I'm hanging out again. Maybe tomorrow I'll get something done... then again there's church, then the Bears are playing. Hmmmm... will Christina ever get her work done and graduate? Stay tuned.
