Moving Forward

life for me

The packers are coming tomorrow and we are moving on friday... it is pure insanity around the house. Lucky for me I work about 10 hours a day so I don't have to deal with it as much. I don't deal with anything anymore. I work and I sleep... that is life for me. sad, don't you think?
On a happier note a really good friend of mine was down here last weekend which was awesomely refreshing for me. That's it for tonight...

posted by Moving Forward @ 1:48 AM 0 Comments

One of those stupid forwards

Last...
movie you rented = Mean Girls... it was surprisingly funny!
movie you bought = Ace Ventura ( I couldn't find the first one until now)
song that was stuck in you head = "Switch" by Will Smith
cd you bought = Lost and Found by Will Smith
cd you listened to = Lost and Found by Will Smith (I'm like a 13 year old girl when it comes to Will)
Person who called you = Vincent (My little bro)
TV show you watched = Boy Meets World, duh!
person you were thinking of = Carley (long time friend)

Do...
you have a crush on someone = wouldn't you like to know? okay, yes.
you want more piercings = No, I think I'm done. And I'm done with tattoos
you like cleaning = Yes! I'm a clean freak
you like roller coasters = Yeah man! Bring it on!
you write in cursive or print = mostly print

Random...
Long distance relationships = they could work
using someone = not cool
teenage smoking = Stupid, a waste of money and good lungs
Driving drunk = there's no reason or excuse. just don't do it

Have you...
ever cried over a boy/girl = yup
ever lied to someone = yeah, not something I'm proud of.
ever been in a fist fight = actually yes, a boy punched me in 5th grade so my sister and best friend and I clobbered (sp?) him.
ever been arrested = nope

What...
Shampoo do you use = Pantene
shoes do you wear = tennis shoes, flip flops... lots of shoes
are you scared of losing = friends, family...

Number...
of times I have been in love = twice
of times I have had my heart broken = too many :o(
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = maybe a dozen times... I'm famous
of scars on my body = At least 6, I've had my appendix and gall bladder out, and I've had foot surgery.

Do you think you are...
Funny = I'm the funniest person you know
Friendly = Yeah, I think so. I love people.
amusing = I'm easily amused that for sure
lovable = yeah, I should hope so
caring = as much as possible
sweet = I try to be
dorky = Sometimes, but you gotta do what you gotta do to make people laugh.
humble = I strive to be

Person who Last...
slept in your bed = me... at least I hope so
saw you cry = my parents
made you cry = a person I don't even know (it's a long story)
you went to the movies with = Michaela. We saw Mr. and Mrs. Smith... I liked it a lot!
yelled at you = probably my dad

Have you ever...
Said “I love you” and meant it = yup
gone out in public in your pajamas = yeah, when I'm at school I go to lunch in PJs on Saturdays. Sometimes to the store... I've got no one to impress
Kept a secret from everyone = yup
cried during a movie = more than once
planned your weekend based on the TV guide = just on Cubs games
been on stage = many a time!
been to New York = I wish! I would love to go
been to California = about 5 times. I love it.
been to Hawaii = No, but it'd be awesome, I'm sure
been to Japan = no, but it'd be cool
been to Canada = yeah, nothing special.
been to Europe = yeah, Italy and France, but I'm going back in a year or so.
what time is it = 4:05 pm
Apples or Bananas = yellow apples
Walmart or target = Walmart is cheaper, but Target has some cool stuff
Spring or Fall = I love fall... the clothes, the weather, the trees, everything
What are you going to do after you finish this = Vinny and I are taking mom and dad out for dinner (It's Father's Day)
what was the last meal you ate = salad
Are you bored = pretty much
last noise you heard = the tv playing "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days"
last smell you smelt = Peony, I just got back from the Bath and Bodyworks sale

Friendship and Love...
do you believe in love at first sight = I think so
do you want children one day and if so, how many = yeah, between 2 and 5.
most important thing to you in a friendship is = honesty, without that the friendship pointless

Other Info...
criminal record = none, other than my speeding tickets
last book you read = I think it was Redeeming Love
name some of your favorite things in your bedroom = my bed and my guitar
who you love = my friends and family
who you miss = my friends and those who have passed
nicknames = Chris
how old do you look = I think I look my age (22)
how old do you act = it depends on who I'm around and the mood I'm in
glasses/contacts = glasses for reading
braces = I'm actually getting braces in a few weeks. Don't worry they're going to be Inivisaline (invisible)
do you have any pets = I have a dog named Shadow and a fish named Dewy Finn.
you get embarrassed = by other people making fools of themselves
what make you happy = my family and friends, being in Italy, music
what upsets you = ignorant, cocky people

posted by Moving Forward @ 4:22 PM 0 Comments

Defeated life

Each day we choose to live either a victorious life or a defeated life... today I was defeated. Big time defeated. We've all had bad days, but for me this one topped them all. Some stuff happened to me early in the day and I consciously made the decision to allow it to rule my day. I wanted to feel sorry for myself all day and for the most part I did. It wasn't one of those times where you try to get people's sympathy; instead I found a way to put myself without other people knowing. I had a pleasant night at work and even got some comments on how good I was and how helpful I was, but I was good and helpful to everyone except myself.
Is this how we are supposed to live? Not at all. I wasted a day of my life focused on myself when the people around me are lost. Living in victory means letting my light shine even when I'm weak. Did one person gain anything from the way I lived my life today? Not one. I chose to live defeated. Don't live defeated.
Anyway, with all there's a ton of change happening around me. My parents are having a new, smaller house built and we're moving in two weeks; my dad's health is going downhill faster and faster everyday; friendships are changing; I'm changing. How do you deal with all that? The only thing I can do is pray, which is actually the best thing to do, but I haven't been doing much of that lately so that presents a problem. I think I've talked before about how you shouldn't try to deal with everything on your own and I'm finding out now more than ever that that is COMPLETELY true. If you do, please pray.
Other than that happy birthday to Peter! Tomorrow is a new day, a new creation. I just gotta remember to take advantage of that. Night all!

posted by Moving Forward @ 11:51 PM 0 Comments

My future and some drinks...

Today was my first day off of work and it was awesome! I worked 10.5 hours starting at 5am... so I think I deserve a day off. But seriously though, I'm glad to be back at work. It's fun for me. For those of you that don't know I develop pictures. It's so interesting, aside from the dirty ones, you really get a look into people's lives... the things they love, their passions. It's so cool. A picture reveals a lot about a person. Its easy for me to read people which is why my job suits me (for now anyways).
Anyway I watched a ton of tv, talked on the phone, and went swimming in the pool today. May I just remind you all that it's so freakin HOT here!! My goodness.
I also got to hang out with my brother, Vinny. We went mini golfing and it was cool just to get to spend time with him. I went with my mom to look at our new house too which was exciting. I don't plan on living there for more than Christmas break when I get back, but I'm happy for them.
I've been thinking a lot about my future and where I'm going to be after graduation. I'm hoping to go to Italy for a year or two or maybe more... who knows. I tell myself that it's the best time only because I'm not attached to anything or anyone right now. It'd be fine to get involoved as long as the other person wanted to travel too, but since I don't see that happening I'm going to be flying solo. So I'm trying to prepare myself for that. I'm almost always in a place where I'm surrounded by people. I need to figure how to be alone. Hey, at least I'm going to be alone in an amazing country.
Ok, I have a gripe so if you don't want to listen to any complaining you should stop reading now. What is the amazing thing about alcohol? Why is it THE topis these days? It seems like everywhere I go people love talking about when they were drunk last or their plans to go get drunk. I'm not gonna lie, I have a few drinkie drinks now and then and I don't think there's anything wrong with it. I just have a problem with people talking about it like it's the best part of their week. I have a friend who has parties every friday night just to get drunk. WHY?? Why waste money? Why can't people just have fun sober? Is life that bad? And what did we do before we were of age? I don't know about you, but I've had tons of fun in my life. Even before I was able to drink. I'm not judging people because there was a time when I thought drinking was cool (I was 19), but I'm over it. When I go out I have no problem getting a drink, in fact I enjoy it. I just feel bad for people when it runs their life.
This isn't meant for anyone specifically... the person I mentioned doesn't even read this. It's just been on my mind lately. I'm open to your opinions. Nighty night all!

posted by Moving Forward @ 1:41 AM 0 Comments

Bittersweet

It's been a while because I've been incredibly busy, but I'm loving it. I spent some time in Illinois last week mainly for the Dudich wedding. It was amazing and beautiful and I am incredibly happy for them. They looked so happy and in love. They are such good friends to me too. I had a chance to sit and hang with John and his groomsman for a while and it was great. He has really grown up in the last four years and it's impressive. We've spent almost no time together because of school, but we've kept in touch through email and a few phone calls. He is still an amazing friend and he always will be. I haven't kept in great contact with Ash, but she's still awesome and I love her. We email and send cards and stuff so it's cool to know that we'll always be friends too. Congrats to them!
Anyway, I was nervous about the summer because of situations with some friends, mainly an ex-boyfriend, but things are turning out alright. Because of my work schedule I've actually seen him more than I have my own parents, which is kind of sad, but it's been good for us. However I'm back to the confused stage that I thought I was out of. Geez... I'm a total girl. :o) There's this guy at school that I didn't realize I had feelings for until we were apart, and now my ex has a girlfriend, but he says that he is willing to change that because they are really casual. grrr. It's flattering knowing that someone likes me and for once I actually feel good about myself, but that feeling won't last and when my short summer is over that will be that. I'll be back to feeling like me and I don't want that. So the logical thing to do is to go about my life alone, as I have been, so as not be even more disappointed and down. Life can be so bittersweet sometimes.
So, I know this sounds so cliche (at least I think it does), but I'm trying to focus on my music right now. I'm singing and playing guitar in a wedding in August so I have to get my fingers and voice ready for that. I'm also doing some writing... something I've been meaning to do for 6 months now. I have a friend who is building a recording studio in his new house and he's invited me to use it when I want so I would love to have some stuff ready when he is done building it.
I'm going to try to keep this thing updated, but I want to know how you all are doing too. I'm hoping to make a lot of changes so pray that I can make it through.

posted by Moving Forward @ 1:36 AM 1 Comments